Song story: In 2017 a few of us began our journey of inner healing. A particular friend of mine shared her journey, and how she realized that her struggles were a result of hurtful memories from the past. Those hurtful memories caused her to embrace a wrong mindset and lies about God, others and herself. As she confessed her own struggles and the things that God was revealing to her, I began to evaluate my own reactions and tendencies. I realized that I needed inner healing. Ever since I became a Christian, I buried the past. I purposely hit the delete button on the past (this is actually a defensive mechanism to shame. Shame is when you hide and cover yourself up). I just wanted to focus on being a new creation in Christ. I would quote scriptures to combat wrong thought patterns. Quoting scripture is very important and necessary. But God also wants to deal with the root of the issue. Because when he deals with the root of the issue that is when he can bring you into a place of complete freedom.

As a funny example, but not funny for Hanson, my husband, I always thought of myself as a time Nazi. This is just the way that I am. I like controlling the time and I get very irritated and stressed when the schedule gets out of my control. Having kids was a real shocker for me. Even before I had kids, I have overreacted when the schedule changes suddenly. I feel stressed and boxed in. But then I realized that the rigidness that I had with time was a result of a hurtful memory in the past when I felt like I was being controlled and I felt helpless, used and manipulated. And so presently, when I overreact to changes in the schedule it is because I want to feel like I am in control. I had to invite Jesus back to that moment where the memory occurred, then I had to ask Jesus what was the lie I believed at that time. I had to forgive whoever made me feel that way and then I asked Jesus to speak the truth in that situation and where he was in that situation. And that is the beginning of inner healing. In the inner healing sessions, the lady conducting it would ask me to recollect a feeling or an emotion or a particular memory. As I described the feelings of abandonment and invisibility and I as described any memories that came to mind, she would sever the memory from the emotions and establish a new neurological link through the peace of Christ.

Jesus says in Isaiah 61:1 "The Spirit of the Lord God is upon Me, because the Lord has anointed Me to preach good tidings to the poor; He has sent me to heal the "brokenhearted (shattered)," to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to those who are bound."

God wants to heal your broken places. He wants to set you free from captivity. He wants to take your broken heart and bring it to a place of complete wholeness. He heals the memories that you had and make them softer so that when you remember that particular memory again you don’t feel the pain or the emotions all over again. The memories are softer, they are redeemed.

He is there in the journey, through every hurt and trial. He can handle your questions, your disappointments. And He will transform all those hurts into something so beautiful if you let Him. This is a song of healing that Jesus sings over you.